Have you ever felt like your life is in limbo?
Like something AMAZING is waiting just around the corner and you just can't wait for it to start!
I have that feeling.
It's a restless stirring in my heart to do more and be more for the kingdom of God.
I want to inspire, I want to move, I want to rise up and help others to become all who God is calling them to be!
Sometimes there's a problem with timing. I want those things for my life NOW while everything God is telling me is pointing to; not yet, one step at a time, you're not ready.
I asked God the other night before bed to give me direction, to tell me what I'm supposed to be doing.
He answered alright.
That night I dreamed I was in labor with a new little one though my now little one hadn't aged he was still only 9 months old. I never really "went into labor" but after a traumatic repeat c-section I was put into recovery and not allowed to see my baby or nurse it. No one else wondered at it, and then they sent me home empty handed.
I wasn't sad in the dream just horribly confused, was this not my child that I had birthed? Why was I not allowed to nourish them like my heart longed to?
Upon waking I was like, "What the heck Lord?!?!"
As I meditated on the dream it became clear that I was not able to bond, nurture or raise this "infant" because I hadn't gone through the pregnancy process or labor.
I realized that God was telling me that my dreams and desires would be like this babe if I wasn't patient, I am willing but the timing isn't right yet.
I feel like He was saying the hard work is pregnancy and labor not just the birthing and after if I give birth to these dreams before the time comes it will be a traumatic "birth" for it, it will taken from me and I won't be able to nurture it the way it needs to be.
He's encouraging me to pray more, and I'll see doors open for me to begin doing what I need to. That opportunities will arise as I meditate on His word.
Also I feel like He's asking me if I want these things for the right reasons. Is it to benefit me? Or Him?
Of course I want to answer, "It's ALL for You God!"
But is it really?
I want what I do to be blessed by Him but before that can happen I need to make sure I do things for the right reasons.
So until then, I'll wait. I'll pray. I'll read scripture. I'll meditate on Him.
I'm reminded of Isaiah 40:31, which is God's promises to those who wait....
Until He opens those doors and sees me ripe for the harvest I'll wait.
I hope this encourages you to wait upon His promises for you, that you would not be discouraged when God says, "Not yet.".
When you're ready you will be a force to be reckoned with.
~Be Blessed~
Amber
